To be or to feel love

Have You ever had those moments where your thinking back in past about those what if moments, since of lately I have been going through somewhat of  a phase ….love phase . I feel as if i have not yet experience love yet, back in high school I always felt invisible and whenever I had a crush and i attempt to do something about It turned into a disaster.The truth Is I’m sick and tired of thinking someone will come in my life and make me happy ,I have to learn to be happy on my own . Its better Saïd than done, even though I’m starting this new journey in myself of focusing on  my spiritual life and myself, I cant stop wondering when am I going to feel happy or satisfied with life , I keep thinking theres something missing but I cant put my hand on It , only time will tell.

But for now I’m doing me baby , me time , to figure out what I want and to love myself .

 

 

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Confuse in many ways

what do you do when you’ve been in the same relationship for over 5 years and its slowly dying . I have tried many ways of confronting my guy but I know for sure it hurt it , not to mention its long distance . Enough of that  so the other day I decided to hang out with a few of friends at school and there was this really cute guy and his voice …. heaven sent , long story short I decided to give him my number and its almost a day and iv gotten any text yet , Im trying my best not to freak out but its the first guy in a while I actually like .Trying to convince myself that what is to be will be  and in the mean while I have a lot to work on with my guy well soon to be ex guy .